In My Dreams I Hold a Knife

By Ashley Winstead

In My Dreams I Hold a Knife - Ashley Winstead
  • Release Date: 2021-08-03
  • Genre: Mysteries & Thrillers
Score: 4
From 203 Ratings


"[A] mordant debut novel....examines what it means to covet the lives of others, no matter the cost."—The New York Times

"Tense, twisty, and packed with shocks."—Riley Sager, New York Times bestselling author of Survive The Night

Six friends.

One college reunion.

One unsolved murder.

Ten years after graduation, Jessica Miller has planned her triumphant return to her southern, elite Duquette University, down to the envious whispers that are sure to follow in her wake. Everyone is going to see the girl she wants them to see—confident, beautiful, indifferent. Not the girl she was when she left campus, back when Heather Shelby's murder fractured everything, including the tight bond linking the six friends she'd been closest to since freshman year.

But not everyone is ready to move on. Not everyone left Duquette ten years ago, and not everyone can let Heather's murder go unsolved. Someone is determined to trap the real killer, to make the guilty pay. When the six friends are reunited, they will be forced to confront what happened that night—and the years' worth of secrets each of them would do anything to keep hidden.

Told in racing dual timelines, with a dark campus setting and a darker look at friendship, love, obsession, and ambition, In My Dreams I Hold A Knife is an addictive, propulsive read you won't be able to put down.

"Beautiful writing, juicy secrets, complex female characters, and drumbeat suspense—what more could you want from a debut thriller?"—Andrea Bartz, author of Reese's Book Club pick We Were Never Here



    By crypticcal
    This book gave me the very rare experience in life of being grateful that I missed out on the traditional university experience. GOODNESS. I was so stressed out reading this book, and I say that in the absolute best way possible. It was such an intense story with so many intertwining perspectives and storylines. All of the East House Seven have skeletons in their closet and they each come face to face with them ten years later at their college reunion. I was begging for the EXACT ending to unfold by the time I got through the first quarter of the book and it was SO SATISFYING to receive it in full. This is such a good thriller through and through! I can not recommend it highly enough!
  • Kept me guessing the whole time!

    By beritito
    Definitely recommend this thriller. Entertaining and kept you guessing the whole time. Great read!
  • Solid bones, disappointing meat

    By Rstrapp
    Good plot, but the writing is shallow and trite, leaving you to wonder whether Winstead is not too bright or if she thinks her readers are stupid. The dialogue might as well be from a bad 80s movie with its melodramatic simplicity. Winstead also either has no idea how academia works or was being intentionally obtuse in order to make her plot work. Neither did she do any research on how drugs work. Had she read the back of a box of diet pills or googled Molly, it would have been less embarrassing.
  • 💯

    By Aj12982
    I went into this book not excited about reading it because I usually am a Colleen Hoover junkie but holy crap did it surprise me! I absolutely loved it and could not put it down. I figured it would take me weeks to read but finished it in a few days. It had me hooked and shook 💯