Chase

It's never been easy being me. I've had my fair share of cocaine, whores, and booze to fill a f*****g lifetime.

Being on television isn't all it's cracked up to be. Bitches constantly throw themselves at you, wanting to get their face on the cover of the tabloids to try and further their nonexistent acting careers. In exchange for the popularity they gain, all thanks to social media, I bend them over, f**k them until they can't walk, and move on to the next. There's always a next. Hollywood doesn't have a shortage in the slut department. But not one of the sluts is ever going to be able to replace the girl that got away.

Ally Wheelan was and still is the love of my life. Everything blew up days before I was due to leave for Hollywood because I was an incredibly selfish a*****e back then.

Looking back, I wish I could have slapped the shit out of myself and told her I'd stay, but you can't change the past. You can only look forward and hope to hell you stop being a selfish a*****e in the future.

Previous relationships have put me off wanting a wholesome family with the wife and children that love one another. Being in Hollywood has taught me that having those things and keeping them is next to impossible.

So far in my life, I've had a tiny handful of women I've trusted, and one of those women, my own mother, walked away from my family and me, and she's never attempted to make contact. She went as far as taking my two little sisters with her. That is where she crossed the line.

Over the time I've been in Hollywood, I've had multiple sex scandals and fake pregnancies announced to the world, and all in all, I have only two women left in my world that I trust implicitly. My assistant Tessa and my sister-in-law to be, Abby, who is newly engaged to my a*****e of a brother Logan. But I'd love it if my existence wasn't so damn complicated.